Leggo my Ego, actually you can have it

 I will admit the last blog caught me in a moment.  A moment of doubt, frustration, and extreme discouragement.  As those moments always do, it passed.  Not however, without the amazing encouragement of my wonderful husband.  It's funny to read that because in our eight years of marriage, I can with complete honesty say that the Lord has had to humble me quite a bit, so, that I could see the blessing my husband was to me.  :} I haven't always been able to look past my own arrogant ego.  I certainly haven't had an easy time surrendering my will and tendency to do things my way either.  All that to say......Todd has been such a strong arm of faith in my weariness.  This morning he said, "God knew this child before the foundations of the earth, and God is no respecter of persons.  Jess, this hold up could be the hand of God, setting up the time frame.  God knows how old this child is, when and if he has been born, and when he is going to need his family.  This is all part of God's purposes".  Wow, what a thought and I had been so busy struggling with my frustrations, when I very well should have been thanking the Lord for working out each tiny detail.  If all else fails we are just going to move to Uganda and fill our house with orphans. :}  Really, why not.  I am learning that most often my questions are why or how, when they should be WHY NOT.